Heartsick

It's been one of those days. It began with a picture online of a boy who - very vaguely - resembled my cousin, my darling boy, the person who I would've sold my soul for in a heartbeat, at time he was at the pinnacle of his beauty. Then, completely randomly, when I was meandering around my new(ish) area, I got to thinking about Cammy, who's now in the last week of his first year as a senior school pupil. Why couldn't he be my pal, not my lover, he was far too young for that, even now, but it could have happened, if the stars aligned. Instead, I've got nothing and no-one.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B