Monday, 8 October 2018

Despair

For a while now, I've tried to convince myself that I should be back to blogging regularly - my aphasia won't be 'cured', ever, but I can function, to a degree, and I could compose a post like this, albeit not very fluently, and more to the point, not quickly. Writing is, mostly, work now, as opposed to a pleasure. But I could force myself to doing it, sometimes, if it wasn't that the world, in its present iteration, was so relentlessly depressing. My own situation is my problem, but the wider world is simply appalling, as far as I can see. The forces of reaction, of selfishness and greed, of bigotry and hatred, are winning, everywhere. Much as I love K, there are days that I wish that she was never born. I'll be dead soon, realistically, but she'll have to live with the consequences of my mistakes, of the world's mistakes. What a legacy.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

2 comments:

  1. Hi Sammy -

    Yes, force yourself to blog! (much as I am forcing myself to practice the piano.) It can only help your overall functioning. (And people won't put their hands over their ears, like they do when I play the piano...lol!)

    As far as the state of the world, I don't know how much longer the status quo can maintain itself. But as long as so many people continue to act against their own self interest, the self-serving ideologues will continue to feast.

    It will be incumbent upon people of K's generation to help turn things around.

    -Andy

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    1. Hello Andy
      Thank you for your comment - I'm nowhere near my domicile at the moment, but I'll respond more appropriately when I can.

      Love & best wishes
      Sammy B

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