In the cold light of day....

....last night's euphoria is shown up for what it really was, hollow and meaningless. Yes, I did enjoy my time with K, I was excited by the match and the way it ended, But I've woken this morning, like every other morning, alone. And with no prospect whatsoever of that situation ever changing. Given who I am and what I want, and the fact that I'm not prepared to 'pretend' and take another 'second-best', it can never change. It's like living in a vacuum, where up or down, win or lose, good day or bad, mean nothing, change nothing. Pointlessness made manifest.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B