In a way, at least. A few times, actually, in recent days, but it didn't occur to me as such until tonight. There I was, sitting in the middle of a public space (i.e. a pub), tapping away on my tablet, adding to my latest story. A story whose subject matter 100% minus me of the clientele would (at least pretended to) have found disgusting. Do I care? Not a bit. If I can hide in plain sight in their world that rejects who I am, why shouldn't I? There are precious few other consolations in my life, after all.
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
In a parallel existence that exists in a virtual sense I do this all the time.
ReplyDeleteBut in the real and dirty world that I actually exist in, paranoia and insecurity prevail, and whenever I venture out there, I can't wait to get back home. Sitting in a pub, defiantly thumbing my nose at the world is, sadly these days, something I just cannot do anymore.
People have often said to me: "You should get out more". The last time I tried that, it was suggested I might be better off at home. I might be inclined to agree if it wasn't so damned lonely there.
Warmest regards - Dave
Hello Dave
DeleteThere are moments when I feel like leaving the world behind, heading off to the proverbial desert island, but I guess I'm too stubborn to let 'them' win so easily. I know all too well, though, how difficult it can be to find a positive outlook in the face of the torrents of hatred, generic if not directly personal, that we have to contend with. Of late, I've been thinking along the lines of 'Why should I feel shame for what I am, for this thing I never chose, the only potential cause for shame could be what I choose to do'. It's not a panacea, but at least it gives me a way I can approach the world on my terms, rather than kowtowing to theirs.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
Writing! Awesome! I see nothing wrong at all with hiding in plain sight. A damn sight more fun than cowering in a lonely writer's garret. At least someone serves you your ale, and there is the chance of eye candy!
ReplyDeletePeace <3
Jay
Hello Jay
DeleteNot much chance of the sort of eye candy I'm interested in at 11:00 on a Sunday night, but you can't have everything! I did feel I'd scored a point against the haters, though, by writing what I was writing where I was writing it, and the story is moving along briskly enough. Hopefully it won't be long until I'm ready to introduce my new cast of characters - even if the subject matter won't appeal to many, maybe not to anyone apart from me.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
And me!
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