I want to stop deceiving people close to me.
I want to call my time my own.
I want to be able to look after my family in the way I think they deserve.
I want to meet one particular blogger whose blog I follow.
I want some sunshine in my life.
I want to write stories that people want to read.
I want a boy in my life.
I want to be free to be me.
In no particular order, and just a wish list, not a plan of action. None of them are likely to be achieved any time soon, sadly.
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
Why not? luv, tman<3
ReplyDeleteHello Tony
ReplyDeleteIn order, because:
I'm scared
I can't afford it
I can't afford it
He lives 4000 miles away and probably wouldn't want to meet me anyway
I can't afford it
I don't seem to have the capacity to do it
Real life's not like that, at least for me
I'm scared of the world's reaction
Apart from that, it's all good.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
Oh, Sammy.... Well, I like to think that the impossible is just a state of mind... always have. I understand the money thing, I don't have much of that either... I'm working on that problem, tho-- I spent the past 12 years educating myself on the financial markets, so that I could invest with some intelligence and confidence... It has opened up a whole new world to me, from which I derive great pleasure... I try like the dickens to share my knowledge with the youngsters in my life... I have convinced 2 of my older Godson's to become involved, and, the younger of those is having an absolute blast with it!! We talk and email at the most bizarre times (midnight - 2 A.M.) to share ideas and just laugh like hell about stupid stuff.
ReplyDeleteI spend a lot of time trying to help the people in my life, and, I'll tell you, altho I live alone, and, until a very short time ago, was in the closet, I rarely feel lonely. Probably because I learned to love myself, kid... Sammy, you are who you are-- I firmly believe that people have no choice when it comes to who they are attracted to. So, start loving yourself, first, Sammy. Are you a good person, in your heart?? You have to find the things that define you, and leverage off of them. There is no such thing as perfection in this world. We are all a work in progress. Just relax and go out and meet people and find the right ones who will accept you for who you are. You NEVER know where life will take you, if you're involved...Never give up... Ever. luv, tman<3
Hello Tony
ReplyDeleteYou've hit the nail on the head - loving and accepting myself is the crux of the matter, and a big part of what starting this blog was about. As you can see, I'm still a fair distance from achieving that aim. Thank you for your kindness and concern.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B