Saturday, 24 January 2015

Unfair

OK, I'll admit that I sometimes go out and about specifically to look for eye candy, not, certainly of late, with any great degree of success most of the time. When I go to work on a Saturday afternoon, already one of my least favourite shifts, though, what I don't expect is for the eye candy to come to me, in a manner of speaking. Wrong again. One of my colleagues brought his son in with him, and I spent all afternoon, breaks apart, no more than a few feet away from the boy, given that his father was working the position next to mine. First impressions were that he was around 11, because he was a compact little guy, but as soon as I heard him speak, I revised my guess upwards - his voice was decidedly not 'little boyish' - and found out a little later that he's nearly 13, when I got the chance to talk to him for a couple of minutes. All in all, though, and although he was by no means 'drop dead gorgeous', it was still bloody torture having him so close for such a long time, trying to look without being obvious, but at the same time not wanting to look, or interact with him, in case I 'outed' myself. As always, all I can say is that anyone who thinks this is a 'choice' on my part simply doesn't understand, or, more likely, want to understand. It's a nightmare, but one where you never wake up.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B

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  1. Oh, I get it. 100%. I struggle, too. I worry about the outing part, the just plain old ogling part (I do get fixated).

    I also get the "choice" part. None of this think that.

    Be careful, work to find someone special. I managed.

    Peace <3
    Jay

    Just work to redirect. I know I've managed to make that work, and my mind is sleeping a lot easier.

    Peace <3
    Jay

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    1. Hello Jay
      I doubt I'll see the boy again, so it's a problem that solves itself, really. Having what I want the most, though, a reasonably cute boy with, from his conversation with his dad, plenty of interests in common with me, close enough to touch for hours, but as inaccessible as if he was on the moon, was frustrating, to say the least. I'll get over it, though, there's no alternative.

      Love & best wishes
      Sammy B

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