Tears

Yes, real ones, and in a public place - i.e. the pub - as well. My ex has rung me a couple of times over the last two days, because her dad isn't at all well - he's in hospital at the moment, although the latest update is that he might be discharged after the weekend - and it may be that I might need to go to Cornwall, to look after our daughter, if things take a turn for the worse and my ex needs to go to the Midlands. I made it clear that I had no problem in helping in any way I can - ditching work wouldn't be any sort of issue, in the circumstances - and, while I initially said that was because I would do it for my daughter, the truth came out pretty quickly, as I told my ex I would just as readily do it for her, because I still love her. Which was the absolute truth, and the catalyst for the tears. I know she doesn't love me anymore, and I accept that, but that doesn't change my feelings for her one bit. As I've said before, it would make things less traumatic if I could fall out of love with her, but I simply can't.

Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B