'Smile!', my wife said to me earlier on. Would that I had anything to smile about. No money, every chance we'll be evicted in the foreseeable future, marriage falling to bits, heading back to Surrey tomorrow, and that's before I even get started on boys, and matters arising. And Christmas on the horizon, too, with the prospect of not being able to afford much in the way of gifts for my wife or daughter. I don't know about smiling, another thing my wife said, this morning, might be more apposite, when she wondered aloud whether I should be on anti-depressants. Yeah, give me a 'happy pill', that'll solve everything.
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
There seem to be some serious communications issues here...dunno if it's my place to suggest anything, but have you considered some marital counseling? It seems worth a shot rather than lose everything.
ReplyDeletePeace <3
Jay
I would agree with Jay.
ReplyDeleteTo your financial situation: talk to your wife! Renounced mutual gifts at Christmas (at least the adults)! Christmas it is not worth ruining themselves financially.
I have been practicing this for many years - I boycott Christmas.
Greetings Nikki
Hello Jay & Nikki
ReplyDeleteThank you for your concern. I don't know yet how things are going to go forward - I've tried talking, and it doesn't seem to get us anywhere but loggerheads. I'm heading back to Surrey later today, so I'll have a few days of relative calm to think about things.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
Hi Sammy;
ReplyDeleteI've just a few moments...working far too many hours lately, but for now a bit for you.
My Friend, SMILE! :)
I know you are going through a great deal, and I know you are not happy with some of that which is coming. You see so much that you want but can't have, and I ask you if you want what you do have?
You have a daughter that loves you. I don't. I never will. You have a challenging job that you can use as a spring board to even greater things, I think. My job has a very low "glass ceiling", and I hit it 5 years ago. You have a wife...though you have problems. I hear that goes with the territory. And you have money problems....dude, join the club!
I don't say this to beat on you, because I know that you use tis blog to vent a bit. What I am saying, though, is that sometimes people come out in the morning and curse the sun for blinding them, making them squint. Others would come out and smile at the warmth and enjoy the birds singing, etc.
If you want to give your wife and daughter a wonderful gift, give them you. You are a great person, and you have been beating on yourself and your situation so that it has you seemingly feeling so very down.
So, I send you hugs and my very best wishes for you today and forward. I send love and hopes that you look in the mirror and love that guy looking back at you.....Lord knows I have trouble with that trick myself. And, I say smile, enjoy the small things in your day that are beautiful and fun and a joy to behold.
I am your fan...
randy.
Hello Randy
ReplyDeleteThank you for taking a little of your free time to visit and comment - it's greatly appreciated. I've said on several occasions in the blog that I'm aware of being better off than many, many others, in spite of what I see as my 'problems', and that's an awareness I still maintain. Having said that, though, I can only see life through my own eyes, and where I am in relation to what I would consider an 'ideal world' is where most of the tension and downbeat stuff comes from. Contrary to the appearance this blog might suggest, I don't spend my whole life, or even most of it, in a slough of despond, but I do have difficult moments, as most of us do. The trick is to try not to let the dark side dominate, I think.
The other trick you mentioned - loving the man in the mirror - is much more difficult for me, though. In fact, it's one I've never managed for as long as I can remember, right back to when a boy's face looked back at me. I know too much about myself, I guess, ever to find the sum of the parts lovable. Sorry if that sounds overly negative, but that's the way it is.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B