It was a congenial evening, really, out for a meal with my brother and his family, he was with my sister-in-law, obviously, while my niece and nephew were there too, with their respective boyfriend/girlfriend, both long term relationships. And then there was me. Alone amongst the bevy of couples. It wasn't something that really struck me until I woke up this morning, but now it has hit home with full force - I'm excluded from that world, probably forever. I've had fantasies of how it could be different, but that is all they are - vain, stupid, unrealistic fantasies. What I want, I can never have, anything I could realistically have, I don't want. An insoluble conundrum, as I've said before.
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
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