The boy who lives in the house behind ours, that is, the one with the controversial bedroom window. I caught a glimpse of him an hour or so ago, for the first time for a while, and he's becoming embarrassingly lovely. He's around 13 now, 'perfect-ville' for me. I've always had serious qualms about gorgeous boys on my doorstep, for obvious reasons - I can resist everything except temptation, as Wilde wrote! Break out the straitjacket, save me from myself. And all that.
Love & best wishes to all
Sammy B
Ah the beauty...hold onto your horses!
ReplyDeletePeace <3
Jay
Hello Jay
ReplyDeleteI'll just lock myself in a darkened room for a couple of years, so that when I emerge, he'll be too old for me. Or something like that.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
Wait, he is 13 and how old are you? Don't you think it is a bit wrong? He is still a child.
ReplyDeleteHello Ian
ReplyDeleteWith all due respect, virtually the whole of this blog, since February last year, has centred around my being a boylover and how I deal with that fact, or, often, fail to. Have you only just noticed? And, even assuming you hadn't picked up on that fact before, in what way is merely looking at someone, and finding them desirable, but going no further, wrong? Or are you an advocate of charging me with thoughtcrime, a la 1984?
Love & best wishes
Sammy B
You can't honestly justify, perving over 13 year old in his bedroom. Saying he is 'Perfectville' for you. Perfect for you in what respect?
ReplyDeleteYour overtly defensive reply, suggests to me that you have taken issue with it before.
Would you be as forthcoming with your 'crush' if you seen this boy on video engaging in sex acts on video. No, I don't think so. Just because your looking at him through a bedroom window, doesn't make it any less of a gross invasion of his privacy.
Hello Ian
ReplyDeleteI wasn't looking at him through his bedroom window, he was in his back garden. I can't see through the infamous window, because their house is higher up than ours - they overlook us, not the other way around.
As far as my attraction to the boy is concerned, I'm not trying to 'justify' it to you, or to anyone else. I've made no secret, through the history of the blog, that I'm a hebephile, attracted to pubescent boys, the actual chronological age varying according to the individual's developmental stage, but unlikely to be younger than 11 or older than 15, with 13, in my experience, being the age most likely to be the most attractive in my eyes. Having said that, I've never had sexual contact with a boy of that age, even when I was a boy myself, when I first became aware of my attraction to that age group. Nor have I ever seen any pornography, photographs or video, featuring that age group, nor sought any out. I'm not especially proud of being a boylover, but neither am I especially ashamed, because it's just who I am, and who I've been for as long as I can remember. The world at large, of course, loathes me and my kind, there's no greater hate figure in modern society than a 'paedo', although most people who bandy that pejorative about don't even know what the correct definition of the word is, and such a level of hatred can make you defensive, but all the moralising in the world isn't going to change my innate feelings. Given my age, my caution and my physical unattractiveness, I don't expect to become involved with a boy, ever, but I'm not going to lie to you and say I never would, if the opportunity arose. But it would only happen if I was totally convinced that it was mutual and consensual. I'm not a child molester, for all the world likes to portray boylovers as nothing more than that.
Love & best wishes
Sammy B